I didn’t think much about being with him. or hugging him. or kissing him. I didn’t think about our past or present or future. I barely thought of him at all. Maybe it’s because I am in a blah mood where everyone just annoys me. Maybe, I am done trying to fight so hard for him. Or maybe it’s because I know he doesn’t want some girl who grew up in the city, not in a small town like his. Or that I’m going to college or I tend to show my weaknesses before my strengths. Our text messages aren’t the same. They lack meaning and passion. He doesn’t seem to understand me as much as he used to. I don’t know what’s happening. I don’t want to stop fighting for him. I don’t want to stop thinking about him. I don’t want to stop at all. But I feel like he is stopping. Which maybe means I should stop. My heart is breaking yet again, for a man I never even fully had.

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June 16, 2011

I find that when he tells me that he is going to bed via text message. I am all of a sudden ready for bed myself.

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June 6, 2011

I Might Not Be Exaggerating After All

I was starting to wonder if I was getting on his nerves since he hadn’t texted me all day. Then, right when I was about to go on a full out rant to my best friend, he did :) He might go out of his way to come visit me tomorrow too! Now… ASK ME OUT ALREADY FOR GOD SAKES!

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